Thursday, April 30, 2009

So Scared....

A couple of days ago I started to just feel really scared that something is "wrong" with this little one God gave us. I had no reason...just a nagging sense. Or maybe (hopefully) just paranoia. My mom has reminded me that I've felt this way with every pregnancy I've been through (and hey, 3 out of 4 stuck!) She also recommended that I try to move my dr appointment up a little. And the receptionist offered to do just that. She told me she could move it up by 2 days (still almost a week away). So, I asked to have the nurse call me back. Voila! You gotta talk to people in higher places! I am going in today at 3:15.
After this call I was feeling slightly better...then I took a catnap with Haley and woke to...concrete evidence that something could very well be wrong. (Could be okay still, but I just basically "wrote it off" at that point-easier to expect the worse and have a good surprise than stick my head in the sand and be "surprised" with bad news...been there done that).
So, I will be at the dr's office in about 7 hours now...and we will see. Once and for all if I'm paranoid...or very intuitive. I hope it's paranoid......
I hope to have good news, but if not, it wasn't meant to be I guess.

5 comments:

Kelly and Kelly said...

praying for you!

Kathi said...

I will be praying for you and look forward to hearing from you!

squirrelgirl said...

Oh Cara, I'll be thinking about you this afternoon.

Jules said...

Praying for you!

Gina said...

cara! are you pregnant?!? i had no idea!? how far along are you?????

i read your other blog about the baby and how it looks in the beginning..but didnt think anything about it!

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